Less Stress Today

…but not so good eating habits.


Today I woke up late again because it took a while to wind down last night, so no breakfast and no lunch prep.  I had the same thing for lunch today as yesterday.  I had half a bag of blue corn chips and half a pound of spinach dip. For dinner I had a Boca burger, skinny bun, 2 tablespoons of Ricotta cheese, a slice of Swiss cheese, 1/2 cup of Portabellas and onions, and two cups of steamed vegetable medley in butter sauce.

This week is about getting portions under control, and learning healthier habits. I hope by next weigh in day it will have had some result or at least maintained weight instead of gaining.

Snack: 2 bananas

Indulgence: medium blueberry sundae from DQ.


No Breakfast

I woke up late today and didn’t get enough sleep.  So I didn’t eat breakfast, which is really unfortunate, because it truly is the most important meal of the day.  So by the time lunch came around I was famished. I had a not so good brunch.


Lunch-half a bag of blue corn chips, half a pound of spinach dip

Dinner- two bananas, Boca Burger, fried mushroom and onions in olive oil, 1 slice of Swiss cheese, two tablespoons Ricotta, 1 skinny bun, 1 cup Greek yogurt, 1 cup strawberries, 1/2 cup blueberries

Banana Pancakes

Banana Pancakes

I’m working on doing Weight Watchers Simple Start on my own and will be adding some products from the “It Works!” program soon. I’m focusing on getting my eating under control before doing exercise. I made what seemed to be a simple recipe for banana pancakes, into a 45 minute ordeal that eventually involved whole grain pancake batter, some soy milk and egg…they still didn’t turn out, but I managed to get two that were mostly edible. So I wont be doing that again, lol.

Weight: 265

Breakfast: two silver dollar size banana pancakes
1/4 cup of honey
1/4 low fat Ricotta
1 low fat English Muffin
2 strawberries

Snack: banana

Lunch: Turkey Reuben-two slices of low cal bread, two slices of tofu turkey, 4 tablespoons of Light Thousand Island dressing, 1 slice of Swiss cheese, 1/4 cup sauerkraut

2 ears of corn


Dinner: 2 Reuben sandwiches

4 slices tofu turkey, 4 slices low cal  bread, 4 tablespoons  Light Thousand Island Dressing, 1 cup sauerkraut, 2 slices Swiss cheese

Indulgence: medium strawberry shortcake blizzard from Dairy Queen


I was hungry all day today, so I drank a lot of water. It helped a little, but not a whole lot.  I wasn’t famished, but I didn’t feel satisfied either.  Most likely because looking back at what I ate today, I consumed a lot of carbs. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.





It’s been 12 days since I’ve had a cigarette.  Twelve days.  I’ve craved them…a lot.  I have a good support system though.  How much money can I save, health benefits, etc.  I think of these things, and stay focused.  I want to be healthy, taking care of my lungs is part of that.  Hopefully quitting will stick.   I want it to.  Quitting and losing weight are going to be ways that I un-trash my body.  I want my body to feel good, and this will help.


What will not help are unrealistic expectations, like working out every single day for a year.   So I’m setting a new goal.  I am going to eat healthy and exercise three times a week for 365 days and see how much weight I loose.  In order to do this I will have to manage my time better, and pre-plan.  Once I get paid, I’m going grocery shopping and then eating healthy.

The Bitter and Sweet of it…

Do you know how difficult it is to loose weight or think of anything good when you’re so stressed.  Not just normal stressed, but stressed, stressed, like, I don’t have money tot buy groceries stressed, like I just bought a new car stressed. I’m about to loose my house stressed. Fucking stressed.

I want to start weight watching again and I want to start getting exercise and motivated, but all of that costs money and time, that I do not have.  April is my target start date for this.  My 365 days will start on April one, that is the plan.  After I’m sure my house isn’t going to be foreclosed and I’m sure I’ll have the cash to buy actual groceries and not chemicals that masquerade as food.  I can’t wait. I’ve been going so far down hill…everything in life has been doing that.

This year has been nothing but torment, and I need the Universe to stop already.  What have I done to deserve this series of unfortunate events.  Maybe I need to rework my karma, something.  Something has to happen to make life get better.  I’m working on making that happen, but we’ll see how it goes.  I finally have a new car, hopefully one that won’t break every two weeks, now I just need to get my tax return back so I can pay off my land taxes and not loose my house.  My Gram is still very sick, terminal.  She’s in renal failure.

If I can make through March, things will get better. Please sweet Freija help me with this.

Day 3 of Couch to 5k

So, I need to plan my meals for the week, so I don’t fail miserably at eating again.  Last week was a disaster.  This week will not be. Calorie limit per day is: 1800, so I’m going to try to consume 1600 so I’ll have 200 calories for mistakes, however, this week I will not be counting calories.  My goal for this week will be portion control and healthier eating.  No ordering lunch at work, and actually packing lunches for work.  


Breakfast-3 frozen waffles, 1 cup fresh strawberries, 2 tablespoons of honey, and 1/2 cup of Vanilla Greek Yogurt

Lunch: Salad with Ceasar Italian Vinaigrette

Dinner: Baked Sweet Potato with Collard Greens, onion, and avocado

Cheat: I had roughly 2 cups of Jalapeno Kettle Chips-EEK!

I didn’t run yesterday like I was supposed to, so I think I’ll go today to make up for it and also tomorrow, because it’s the start of my new week.  My muscles will be sore and horrid feeling on Tuesday, but it’s the price we pay for skipping.

Day 2 of Couch to 5k

I like this every other day run thing.  It takes a lot to motivate myself to do something like this, so taking it slow works.  I would like to be able to run the full 60 seconds without having to stop and without getting heinous side aches.  Today I think I was able to hold out longer on the run intervals, if not more than a few seconds, but an important few seconds.  I still was not able to do the full eight.  It will get better.  I stretched better tonight, hopefully I won’t be as horridly stiff tomorrow.

I didn’t go until 9:30pm, which wasn’t the best idea.  It was dusk when I started and nightfall when I got home.  I had to conquer my fear of dark forests, lol. I walked/ran by several of them.  I didn’t get as sweaty this time, but that could have had something to do with my last run being in 80 degree weather and this one being on 40 degree.  

My workout stats for today are: I completed C25K Week 1 Day 2 (1.16 miles), in 00:18:30, pace 15:56 min/mile, with @RunDouble http://rndb.co/U1ts

I’m also going to not advance to Week 2 until I can run for 60 seconds without dying and complete the workout properly.  I want to be able to run/walk and benefit from the workout the way it was intended.  

My eating habits have got to change dramatically.  Today I ate some bad for you things.  I had potato wedges…with ketchup, not ranch.  A small tp, but a step. I also had a personal pizza from Subway…also not the healthiest.  I had two cups of coffee with cream and sugar, but no pop…I really wanted to get some though…I’m glad I didn’t.  I bought water instead.